Migration Journey

Assalamualaikum

When you hear ‘Niqab’, what comes to mind? Well, the beauty of the moon does not change when covered by clouds, just as the beauty of a woman remains when covered by Hijab or Niqab.

Allah Subhanahu Wa’ Tala says, take one step towards me, I will take ten steps towards you. Walk towards me, I will run towards you.

I once a girl without any hijab (after revert) and it took me quite a long time to wear it as my job involve of performing and meeting peoples. Later then, I made a decision to wear hijab, one by one, step by step I migrated myself to a better appearance. Wide shawl next handsocks and socks. So this is the final migration I decided to migrate. Wearing a niqab and I’ve been practicing few days but yesterday was the final decision. I’ve deicded to wear it on the 1st of syawal (continuously). People question up even my husband asking the same question. “Are you sure?” though he's the one who kept on giving some signal of wearing a niqab. *Istiqomah Amani* So here it goes...

A Muslimah in a hijab, is a Queen with her crown. Hijab is difficult, Abayas are even harder, Jilbab is a struggle and Niqab is a sacrifice. But indeed, the reward is tremendous. If you want to know about the Niqab, ask the view of a Niqabi and not someone giving his or her biased views not having worn it in the first place. This is what I did. I keep on struggling asking my surrounding about this. I received more positive words compared to negative. I ask the Niqabis, ‘ustaz’ and ‘ustazah’, like everyoneeee.

Then I realized, my niqab is my protection and it reminds me that my heart belongs to Allah and He is the One who deserves my sincerity, love and obedience. Our niqab and hijab gives us the best identity, the honoured identity of a woman of Islam. Alhamdulillah! Hijab is our honour, dignity and freedom. Our hijab shows that we are liberated from servitude to anyone or anything other than Allah. Hijab is a lot more than just a headscarf. Hijab is a way of life and it should be with us wherever we go.

When our parents, Adam and Hawa (Peace be upon them) discovered their nudity they felt ashamed. Now, we are making it acceptable in society. There’s a difference in opinion as to whether the niqab is compulsory or not but no Scholar would ever tell you that the niqab isn’t Islamic. Wearing the niqab takes strength and sacrifice but when we do it for the Sake of Allah, it becomes more than rewarding. Alhamdulillah!

When you cover up for the sake of Allah, that in itself makes you a lot more beautiful because you’re doing what He has commanded you to do. Women of the world show their bodies to achieve their passion in something, to achieve success in the world. The women of Jannah cover their bodies to achieve success in Akhira. (Please do not question me about someone repent because this is based on my opinion)

A person blinded by prejudice may not see it, but a hijabi or niqabi is beautiful, full of confidence and dignity. Anything but oppression. HIjab is the cover we wear not only for our body but for our heart and soul too. Hijab should inspire us to be modest in every walk of life. If there’s one thing that can change our destiny, it’s Du’aa. When you raise your hand and ask Allah, HE WILL NEVER LET YOU DOWN.

Wallahi, the hijab will bring in a lot of changes and value into your lives. It’ll make us realize how value and honour of modesty and there’s nothing more beautiful than a niqabi covering her beauty Allah’s sake. May Allah reward all niqabis striving for Allah’s pleasure.

Love,
Amani xoxo
#2ndsyawal

The untold story

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

Here is some of my untold story hoping it will answer all the question.

Why do I choose Muslim instead of other religion? First of all, I did not suddenly decide to be a
Muslim. No I never think of that previously and I did not wake up and suddenly feel wanted to recite the 2kalimah syahadah which proclaim a person to be a Muslim.
No I did not at all. I did not have any cert of Muslim or an ustazah to explain about the truth in Islam.
Not at all. I did not have any experience of that yet this is my personal journey.

People keep asking me the same questions everyday when they meet the new me. Sometimes I do tell them but sometimes I rather keep silence and just smile. The interest of it came after a long time. Well, my bestfriend is Muslim and
yes I grow up surrounded by Muslim friends. But still I do not have any interest of being Muslim at that time. But one I remember, I have been punished from not going to church everytime I came to school early. Yeah, I’m a convent girl where my school is right next to the church. I have been running away that time and because of that incident I have been punished and ashamed. Oh why do I feel that kind of way. My father was a religious man. I mean RELIGIOUS. 

Then I asked my girl “why do you perform solat”. “If you don’t perform a day, will your parents mad at you”. She answered me “christy (my previous name) you know what, solat is like a time you will be chating with God, your own secret and only He knows it. There are no paksaan in it. Yes of course my parents would mad at me if I skip it but the way they mad is by advicing you, why and wat happen if you’re not solat”. And again i saw the beauty of Muslim family. Is not that I’m saying my religion isnt beauty at all but I feel something missing in it. By then, I try to google about ‘Muslim’.

I keep the dream of convert to Muslim silently. Perhaps I was not ready that time or perhaps it was  not the right time. So then I get job in Malacca and met a guy who is Muslim. I met his family which is still be my family till now. From there I keep on learning. Until one day, I saw they perform 

together their solat and my mom text me, saying she had dream of me using telekung and I’ve cried. IndeedBy the way, that man isnt my bakal zauj or so on, just a friend and yes I have not married yet. So then, they help me into my new journey of becoming Mualaf and alhamdulillah I manage to recite dua kalimah syahadah smoothly. I do feel palpitation to tell my family about this but I know I still have to tell them.

For the first time, my family abandoned me because of my decision of choosing Muslim. For the first time my dad cried because of my decision. It took about a year for them to accept the new me. Alhamdulillah now everything is getting smooth. My dear mualaf, all you have to do is to be patient and insyaAllah by end of the day Allah will grant you something.